ladyraine

Well, I have been gone for a while. To be honest, I forgot where this site was, but that is the easy excuse. A lot has happened tome in the past few months, the least of which is that I quit smoking. It has been 110 days now and I am quite proud of that. But in the process I have put on almost 20 pounds because of it. Today I am feeling very depressed about it and going back and forth, “should I start smoking, should I not, should I, should I not.” I know this is just the dang nicodemon trying to get the best of me and I also know I do NOT want to start “stinkerettes” again, but I have to get this weight off, so after much searching I found my way back here and here I will stay.

I vow to check in every day, watch what I eat, get back to the gym and exercise, and get this damn weight off again. Now that I have a semi-handle on the cigs, now is the time to concentrate on the bigger issue, my weight. Day one begins tomorrow in my search for my body again.

Kriss

It has been a few days since I journaled.  Life has been crazy in every respect, but not a good enough excuse.  I truly have to remember that this is going to be a slow, but successful journey.  I want it off NOW, but it is coming off as it should.  I need to stay away from the scales so I don’t get discouraged.  I am averaging a pound a week so I should be mighty happy.  Especially since I know it “ain’t comin’ back!!!”

I really wanted to have a drastic change by the wedding next month, but GOOD HEAVENS, it isn’t going to come off by wishing.  LOLOL  I guess because I go to the gym every day and do 45 minutes on the treadmill and some weights that the weight should be melting off.   I know, I know…..remember the mantra “muscle weighs more than fat.”  I feel better and I walk taller and I can finally suck that ole tummy in, but I want to see physical results on the scale.  SHEESH, I don’t want much do I?

Ok, enough of my sobbing.  I am proud that I have come this far and I have now given myself a year to get in total shape instead of a month.  LMAO

WHooo Whooo, I lost a whole 5 lbs.  It’s about time the ole monster scale showed some results.  Actually, I have been away for a few days.  Life has taken hold and I had a million things to get done.  Mainly re-arranging my office/studio so I would have room to work on my crafts.  SHEESH!  I had no place to even do a single things.  But we are getting there little by little.

The gym has been my savior although it also was making me mad.  I work out every day walking at least 2 miles on the treadmill and doing some weight training and wasn’t seeing any results.  Then I remember what someone told me and my new mantra, “muscle weighs more than fat.”  I can see the slight difference in the mirror, but there is so much more to do.  I have to be patient and always remember that it took time to put on this ugly fat and is going to take time to get it off.  The important thing is that I am moving.  Even when I fall off the wagon one day, I am moving.  I will not give up now. 

It’s a new day and a new committment to my goal.  I ROCK!!!!!  LMAO

EEEKKKK!  I had a horrid day as far as my  program is concerned.  Just can’t resist Valentine’s day.  I got a nice chocolate treat from my boss, plus he took me to this awesome Italian restaurant for lunch.  Me and Chicken Parmejan had a wonderful lunch.  LOLOL

I should be crying rather than laughing, but yanno, I don’t feel bad for going off for one day.  I will just get back on the horse tomorrow and continue.  If hubby doesn’t take me out to din din tonight (and I will kill him if he doesn’t LOL) then I am going to to ahead and go to the gym, so my mess up won’t be TOO horribly bad. 

Will power is not in my vocabulary unfortunately and I hate denying myself all the time.  That is why I am taking today so lightly.  I was bad, but will make up for it.  I feel like Madame Rotunda due to today, but at least I can laugh about it. (big smile)

Well, this day has been an interesting one.  I am so thankful that with this group, I am able to keep a food and exercise journal.  I don’t totally understand all the combined figures, but it will come to me.  From what I see, I am staying below my caloric requirements.  In a way this is good, but in a way it is not.  I was told today not to skip any meals because when you do, you body thinks you are starving it and tends to store fat to keep in reserve.  This made a lot of sense to me and since I am diabetic I can’t NOT eat, so instead of my massive meals, I have scaled them down a lot and included snacks. (MAN, will my doctor be proud of me.  LOLOL)

Anyway, I am still feeling great and not getting discouraged that the weight is not flying off of me.  I know I am in the right direction with my new conciousness of how to get my physical life in order.  It will happen, I just know it will as long as I continue on the path I have started. 

I am going to try to stay off the scales for a few days.  I have a tendency to just jump right on each morning and I know that is not good.  I think it is a detriment actually at this stage in the game. 

I LOVE BuddySlim!!!!!

Although I just started BuddySlim yesterday, today I had a three pound loss.  Ok, so it wasn’t in one day.  LOLOL  I started this journey a couple weeks ago, but only got on the scales this morning so to see a three pound loss was a great incentive.  It was a bit depressing though since I have been working out six days at the gym, walking two miles a day and working out on weight equipment, but what I realized was that I must be losing inches in addition to the pounds that are turning into muscle.

I know those three pounds are gone forever.  YIPPEE.  I mainly need to be patient with myself and realize that I didn’t put this weight on in two weeks and it surely is going to take a LOT longer to take it off.  I feel good that I have accomplished this so far. 

I am so glad I found BuddySlim.  It always helps to have a network of like people to motovate you.  Well, I am probably out of the norm for this site.  I am a 55 year old mother of two and grandmother of two.  Weight has always been an issue with me and I have gone up and down for many, many years.  Thanks to my new motivation (a wedding and college graduation I am attending this year), I have finally decided to get on the stick and get things done.

I have also realized that you are never too old or too late to do something about your health.  I joined a “no contract” gym and have a very wonderful workout partner who motivates me every day.  I am starting to see a difference in how I feel and how I look.  I have a long way to go, but am not turning back now.

I am glad I am here and look forward to being motivation to others who are in my predicament.  Just wish I would have been able to convince myself before this.  Upward and onward.